Egg-Jams...

Tests, Assignments, Term papers, Presentations...

I submitted my Take Home Quiz today... yay!!... Phew...

Suddenly a thought crossed my mind, second month into my PhD and I already had written two exams and submitted an assignment... Wow!




Through out the day we had group meetings, meeting with a gas cylinder guy, meeting with hazardous waste guy, meeting for BIMBO, I actually ate at my 'desk' since I did not have time to get out of the office. But the thought about the number of exams was killing me. The minute I got a breather I ran to my desk and sat down with a calculator.



I began making a rough estimate of number of Exams I have written so far, including the assignments, term papers and meaningless presentations. Brace yourself the number is a whopping 591. Yes, indeed!!! It averages to 1.82 exams per month of my life up until now.


I cannot help but remember all my classmates from school and college who went through the same trauma.

Kudos guys, WE DID IT!!! Err...wait a minute... YOU did it!!!...

I still have a long way to go... I guess I will slightly fall shy of a "million" tests once I graduate and become “Dr. Sri Seshabhattar” : ) ;)



Hopefully all the pain will look worthwhile then...

Cheers
Sri, 19th February 2009

P.S: I draw all the cartoons on my blog on a Wacom Bamboo Fun Tablet. Ideas for some of the cartoons are my own and so are inspired from others work.

I Knew Her...

I know Her...
She is my idol
She was inquiring if I was studying well

She was on cloud nine to know I got an admit into PhD
She was scared I was alone
She was supportive about my decision

She was contended with my grades in MS

She was pestering me to study
She was calling me to tell me she emailed me

She was unhappy when I left Her and India

She was confident that I would get my visa

She was ecstatic when I got my admit to NC state




She was elated with my MBA
She was persuasive about my higher studies
She was with me when I was stuck in a mess

She was happy I changed my job

She was worried about my hours at work
She was jumping with joy on my first job

She was really pissed off with my studies
She was putting up with my anger
She was beside me when they gave me shots

She was drained off energy from serving me at the hospital
She was dispirited with my jaundice

She was apprehensive about my major

She was cool with my engineering admit




She was behind me to study
She was putting up with my adolescence
She was convinced I have stuff
She was celebrating my success
She was delighted when I finished High School
She was exuberant when I passed Social Studies
She was reading the textbook aloud while I was fast asleep
She was concerned I will not pass
She was troubled with my Social Studies course



She was taking care of me
She was crying I met with an accident
She was getting me ready to school
She was beating me because my clothes were dirty
She was plaiting my hair

She was feeding me
She heard me cry
She was relieved I don’t
She was going around the hospital
She was worried I had crooked feet
She was beaming with happiness
She was looking into my eyes

She was holding me for the first time
I was New to her... But
I knew Her...
She was my idol

-Sridevi Seshabhattar, 17th February 2009



Happy Birthday Mummy
Many Many Happy Returns of the Day
read from bottom to top :)


Some amateur stuff


Green Spiral - Organic nature of Nature



First art of everyone in the world, hut, sun and grass..
Missing a lake though....

Sony Vaio...Fresh Start...

Sigh...

I was happy on the first day of my PhD; I knew I was going to have a fresh start and things will be different ... I will have a new laptop...(?!)

My office in MS had computers that were at least ten years old with windows 98 that either crashed or ran like it crawled. Oh! By the way did I mention that four of us used to share two computers and two inoperable ones and a couple of undergrads also used them once in a while.

So ever since my PhD advisor spoke to me about a laptop I started dreaming jumping up and down about my ground – breaking research on a new laptop (probably a tablet).





Hmm...Well, as you all have already guessed it looks like my dreams will remain dreams for a long time. I am guessing there is a conspiracy at a very high level.

Conspiracy theory:
• Why was the configuration not approved by the purchases even though my adviser gave a nod?
• Once approved why was the order not placed immediately?
• Why did Intel choose to cease the production and pull out the processors from the market? (Had to wait for the new ones to arrive)
• Why does the guy who places the order not answer anyone’s calls or emails?

Things really are different... I at least had a shared desktop with 10 GB memory and Windows 98....

Boy! I really am off to a Fresh Start... Sigh...

Cartoon: www1.istockphoto.com



It will be 'all right'

I Hope...

It will be 'all right'

This is one of my favorite sayings. The phrase comes in handy while coaching anyone in trouble. It gives hope of a future time when the current problem is dead and gone.

Any situation in the past that made you feel terrible will no longer have the same influence in you today. It is the temporary nature of problem that has to be borne in mind rather than making them permanent.

When stranded in a problem, focus completely shifts to problem rather than the bigger picture. When you tell yourself “It will be all right” the attention will be diverted to a future time where the problem is solved.

The old saying "down the road we will laugh about this" applies. Instead of waiting until a later time, laugh about it now. Tell yourself that no matter what is occurring, it will be all right. Practice faith in this statement in all that you do.

An ounce of hope can turn around any hopeless situation.

Remember this when you feel circumstances in your life are getting you down.

It will be 'all right'


Just By Chance...

Only two things matter the most to me
  • Have I taken a chance / risk, whether calculated or otherwise, and put my best foot forward while taking up tasks?
  • Did I give a chance for someone to explain themselves before I judge them for their actions?


While the answer to the first question was not "Yes" at all times, the answer to the latter has become affirmative with conscious effort.

Deal with the faults of others as gently as with your own

It is highly important to step into others shoes for two reasons. It gives us a chance to realize that we would have been a terrible misfit in that situation and probably would have acted worse than the person in consideration. Secondly, and most importantly it saves the disgrace of break up or separation in many relation ships which eventually leads to peaceful coexistence.


MS, PhD and Blah....



Graduate Student Life!

Tough, frugal and full of obstacles. Research, Thesis and Dissertation win accolades for best negative roles. We are all suffering but some enjoy the process. What makes the difference? Knowing the Do’s and Don’ts of Research Life.

Be a self-starter:

I recently got a present from my advisor

“A PhD is not enough” - Peter J. Fibelman
http://home.flash.net/~pjfeibe/a_phd_is_not_enough.htm

The book is about survival in the scientific field after getting a degree. The gesture that some one cares for my degree and career made me really happy. Well, we are not always lucky to find such advisors. Some of us had bitter experiences too. I have learnt from my experience.



Learnt that one should not wait for an external force or event to change ones status. If you don't have a pushing advisor, you'll end up finding yourself drifting around purposelessly for years. So it's better to tell your advisor that what you want to do next rather than always waiting for your advisor telling you what you should.

Focus:
Often he who does too much does too little




Try not to conquer the world with a single research topic. Narrow down the topic to one aspect that is distinct enough and you can really work with it. Research is not research until you have focused it around a solid research question that addresses a problem or issue.

Work hard:
All the so-called "secrets of success" will not work unless you do



Every PhD student knows that it's better to make steady progress in research. Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there. Organize yours tasks and take up one at a time. Once you start a task get it done enough to ignore it for a while so that you don’t have to switch between tasks too often.

Get out early:
Time stays long enough for anyone who will use it


Often we are caught up in a vicious circle that we end up doing nothing productive during the day and stay up late in the night. This will make us even much less productive the next day. If you are in such a circle, jump out right now and reset.

Question yourself, be your boss:
Some one once told me “Don’t ask a PhD student how his/ her research is going; just like not asking a girl about her age or weight.”



But maybe it's a good strategy to ask yourself such a question now and then "how's your research going?"

Do not choose to wait until the day before the meet with advisor and work overnight to get some stuff done so as to prevent from having nothing to say during the meeting. What's funny is sometimes your advisor is too busy picking some one from the airport or giving a talk at a conference. He has no track of your research progress and is unconscious of your getting nowhere. This gives you reason to drift around another week.

But probably besides your advisor, you also need to report to yourself if you consider yourself as your boss. Just breaking all major tasks into smaller ones. Make a list to do each day and check them off as you complete them.

Do not feel frustrated:
To be conscious that you are ignorant is a great step to knowledge

Don't feel depressed when you find yourself more and more ignorant. Talk about your frustrations with peers or senior graduate students, and don't let academic frustrations take control of your whole life.

And last but not least when things go downhill and frustration never seems to end~



Keep in mind that there is life outside your department and most people have never even heard of what you are studying