I was beginning to think I will not be able to pen anything happy in the blog again until I got married and started to live for a reason and not merely survive. Dileep helped (is still helping) me understand how important it is not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. He made discover a world full of possibilities and filled with positive energy. I found my place in a perfect(for me) world. Hope to keep blogging.
I want to live - with or with out you
If it is possible I don’t want to feel this way
I want to enjoy your absence and ignore your presence
My words I want to keep and get a good night’s sleep
I want to get off this lane and fall-out of pain
My pillows, they know your name; they must think I am so lame
For they are never dry as I dig into them and cry
Wind brings your scent; birds sing your name
Every thought of you makes me insane
Walking through the rain; sending myself through pain
I think of you and fall in love again
If it is possible, I don’t want to feel this way
From this pain I want to get-away
On these lonely banks I no longer want to sit and wail
To a happy place I want to set sail
I want to live 'with or without you'Inspired from U2's "with or without you" <--(click here to listen)
Photo credits Canon Power Shot SD 600
Sri Seshabhattar
10th April 2010
I will figure it out!
I learned to be Alone, Never thought would be Lonely
I learned to stare at Darkness, Never thought would have to live in Dark
I learned to battle for Victory, Never had to fight to Lose
I learned to soak up my Tears, Never to run them down my Cheeks
I learned to control Hatred, Never had to curb Love
There is always a First Time
I will drown into an Ocean and learn to Float
I will Talk myself into learning Silence
I will learn to Lose a battle and Win a friend
I will learn to figure it out
I can and I will!
Nee Sneham lo, Velige vennelo, konnalaina santhoshamga gadichayanukona ....
Sri Seshabhattar
24th March 2010
Fair Trial
It is so amusing to me....
the choice you have made....
you had the power to screen me off your life....
and you chose it...
even the worst in the world get their turn....
to say something in return....
I never got my last words...
If I did something ....
for you throw me away...
to erase my memories ....
and you think I deserve punishment....
then....I demand...
I demand a trial ... a fair trial.....
you be the judge...
I will be the devil's advocate .....
Why today....
Why today you might ask...
It is today because ..
It didn't happen yesterday.... and it may not tomorrow....
the choice you have made....
you had the power to screen me off your life....
and you chose it...
even the worst in the world get their turn....
to say something in return....
I never got my last words...
If I did something ....
for you throw me away...
to erase my memories ....
and you think I deserve punishment....
then....I demand...
I demand a trial ... a fair trial.....
you be the judge...
I will be the devil's advocate .....
Why today....
Why today you might ask...
It is today because ..
It didn't happen yesterday.... and it may not tomorrow....
Changing oneself
Should we or should we not change ourselves for others...
Ideal answer: No, we should not...
Practical answer: Of course, why not?
But don't call it change.. call it 'adaptation' or 'mutation' and throw in words like 'survival of the fittest' and Bam! Not only you can change yourself but you also have a scientific theory to support your change.
Do not forget! ... You have to lose some to gain some!... Change yourself, adapt to the world, make yourself comfortable... and lose your 'identity'!
Random thoughts
Sri
31st January 2010
Ideal answer: No, we should not...
Practical answer: Of course, why not?
But don't call it change.. call it 'adaptation' or 'mutation' and throw in words like 'survival of the fittest' and Bam! Not only you can change yourself but you also have a scientific theory to support your change.
Do not forget! ... You have to lose some to gain some!... Change yourself, adapt to the world, make yourself comfortable... and lose your 'identity'!
Random thoughts
Sri
31st January 2010
Hyderabad Meri Jaan
Born elsewhere grew up in this city
Those days people had felicity
Lived here for Life
Love was prevalent then meagre was strife
Things certainly changed
Auto Rickshaws bother me so do Cars
High rise buildings are dense and trees became sparse
Idea of pollution both air and sound
driving on roads with dents and vehicles that mound
Fills me with fear paramount
When the flight hits the ground
Heart starts to pound
There is so much to Hyderabad
Than just the borders and buildings
I miss my city, I miss my Life
with my eyes filled with tears
As I land in my hometown the city of pearls
“Welcome home kid” every inch of it Cheers!!!
Missing Home
Mishri
15th November 2009
Picture Credits: Canon Powershot SD 600
Just one!
Some people take time to mingle, make friends and finally open up to others..... You meet a person and think he is totally reserved, introverted, selfish, lame, egoist and the likes... but when you manage to stay friends with them long enough these caterpillars do turn into butterflies who make your world so much better....
I also met the other kind-very sweet and pleasant to begin with, but spoil all your relations, steal your friends and crumple your world to the best of their abilities...
Every single time I ask my friends "what they thought about me when they met me?" They all (well, most of them) say 'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'. What do they think of me now?'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'.
It doesn't really matter if someone knows me for a day, year or a decade, they think I am the same person they met!! Should this make me happy!? I don't know!
I have always read these books where the lead / anti -hero always had a character with the depth of an ocean and are very mystic.
I am beginning to think there is no such depth to my personality..... I am 100% 'Me' from the minute anyone meets me... There is no mysterious quality about me... I don't have this cool dimension or a different facet to my personality... I present myself as and will remain the exact same person always... How dull is that!
If ever I had to write an auto-biography or make a movie about my life, Here's how it would go:
"Hi, I am Sridevi, Nice to meet you, Let me know if you need something!"
What are you waiting for?... The show is over.. go home!!!
Curtains Down
Mishri
15th November 2009
I also met the other kind-very sweet and pleasant to begin with, but spoil all your relations, steal your friends and crumple your world to the best of their abilities...
Every single time I ask my friends "what they thought about me when they met me?" They all (well, most of them) say 'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'. What do they think of me now?'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'.
It doesn't really matter if someone knows me for a day, year or a decade, they think I am the same person they met!! Should this make me happy!? I don't know!
I have always read these books where the lead / anti -hero always had a character with the depth of an ocean and are very mystic.
I am beginning to think there is no such depth to my personality..... I am 100% 'Me' from the minute anyone meets me... There is no mysterious quality about me... I don't have this cool dimension or a different facet to my personality... I present myself as and will remain the exact same person always... How dull is that!
If ever I had to write an auto-biography or make a movie about my life, Here's how it would go:
"Hi, I am Sridevi, Nice to meet you, Let me know if you need something!"
What are you waiting for?... The show is over.. go home!!!
Curtains Down
Mishri
15th November 2009
Break!!
Haven't seen any posts from me off late... just means.. I am busy writing a part of what could be my thesis in two years time ... or more...
Love
Mishri
26th October 2009
Love
Mishri
26th October 2009
Ha ha
I thought this was hilarious:
" If you want to sacrifice the admiration of many for the criticism of one, go ahead, get married!!"
" If you want to sacrifice the admiration of many for the criticism of one, go ahead, get married!!"
Positive Outlook
Things are never as bad as they seem to begin with ....
Self learnings
Mishri
24th September 2009
Self learnings
Mishri
24th September 2009
Waiting for an accident
Vidhi used to call me "Mapp" short for Most accident prone person.... She should see this!!!
ROFL!!!
Mishri
21st September 2009
Cartoon credits: http://4.bp.blogspot.com/
Quotes
Just a quote that made my day
"Just when Caterpillar thought the world is over..... she turned into a butterfly"
and some more ... few of them inspired me a great deal and others taught me..... to simply forget and move on
Hard work never hurt anyone, but why take the chance :)
A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book :D
There are good days and there are bad days, and this is one of them :P
Born to be wild - live to outgrow it :P
Life's more amusing than we thought :)
My mind tells me to give up but my heart won't let me :(
Where ever you go, Go with all your heart :)
Consciousness: that annoying time between naps X-(
The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to X-(
There are many more.. these are some that I could recollect in five minutes
Sayings
Mishri
21st September 2009
"Just when Caterpillar thought the world is over..... she turned into a butterfly"
and some more ... few of them inspired me a great deal and others taught me..... to simply forget and move on
Hard work never hurt anyone, but why take the chance :)
A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book :D
There are good days and there are bad days, and this is one of them :P
Born to be wild - live to outgrow it :P
Life's more amusing than we thought :)
My mind tells me to give up but my heart won't let me :(
Where ever you go, Go with all your heart :)
Consciousness: that annoying time between naps X-(
The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to X-(
There are many more.. these are some that I could recollect in five minutes
Sayings
Mishri
21st September 2009
Fragmentation in Life
Fragmentation!
(Manish started a thread about the fragmentation of a person's time and mind, the difference in behavior at work and at home ...)
My view is no different.. Fragmentation is a beautiful way to explain life .... It doesn't always have to be between work and personal life.... Fragmentation is everywhere..
A man lies to his mother .. "Sorry Ma, can't see you this week, I am busy with a meeting.." he told his mother just because, his kid wanted to watch a movie that night...
Man is torn between his mother and son.. He has to live his life in pieces..He chose the Lion's share of affection for his son today, he wants him to be happy....
Kid hears the conversation and thinks.. "May be Daddy lied to me the other day.. when he did not make it to my piano recitals because of a meeting"
Who is happy now? His affection, attention, love and care .. every thing is divided..
The Question: Can we ever give undivided interest to anyone/ anything?
(Manish started a thread about the fragmentation of a person's time and mind, the difference in behavior at work and at home ...)
My view is no different.. Fragmentation is a beautiful way to explain life .... It doesn't always have to be between work and personal life.... Fragmentation is everywhere..
A man lies to his mother .. "Sorry Ma, can't see you this week, I am busy with a meeting.." he told his mother just because, his kid wanted to watch a movie that night...
Man is torn between his mother and son.. He has to live his life in pieces..He chose the Lion's share of affection for his son today, he wants him to be happy....
Kid hears the conversation and thinks.. "May be Daddy lied to me the other day.. when he did not make it to my piano recitals because of a meeting"
Who is happy now? His affection, attention, love and care .. every thing is divided..
The Question: Can we ever give undivided interest to anyone/ anything?
Ponders
Mishri
20th September 2009
Happy Birthday Daddy
For all the times you are with us
For all the decisions you have taken for us
For every memory you have carved for us
We are grateful to you
Every daughter, every son look up to their father
They say this is what I will become some day
We did the same when we were young
But found a lot more in you as we grew
A friend, a confidant , a teacher to mention a few
Walking with us in the alleys dark and bright
You lead the way always towards the right
Doesn't matter if we are weak or might
You always say we should put up a fight
We wish you a Birthday filled with Love
Happiest memories yet many more to come
We sent out prayers to all the heavens above
Millions of stars be sent out today
To turn into true anything you say
Happy Birthday Daddy
Many Many Happy Returns of the Day
You mean the world to us
Love
Chinnu, Bujji
16th September 2009
For all the decisions you have taken for us
For every memory you have carved for us
We are grateful to you
Every daughter, every son look up to their father
They say this is what I will become some day
We did the same when we were young
But found a lot more in you as we grew
A friend, a confidant , a teacher to mention a few
Walking with us in the alleys dark and bright
You lead the way always towards the right
Doesn't matter if we are weak or might
You always say we should put up a fight
We wish you a Birthday filled with Love
Happiest memories yet many more to come
We sent out prayers to all the heavens above
Millions of stars be sent out today
To turn into true anything you say
Happy Birthday Daddy
Many Many Happy Returns of the Day
You mean the world to us
Love
Chinnu, Bujji
16th September 2009
Calling Bell
Anu who was placed on hold by her mom shrugged and said...."What is more important? International Call or Local call?"
I am sure all my friends talking to India have had this experience at least once....I sighed deeply and said "Calling Bell"
Here's why:
My mom keeps me on hold... while I am on a international call... in order to talk to someone on the local line....
The icing on the cake though is after she is done with that call....(I was on hold for at least ten minutes by the way)..... she comes to the phone and says "Sweet heart I need to hang up your call, Someone is ringing the 'door bell' ( 'calling bell' as we call it in India....) Love you Honey!! "
Chuckles
Mishri
15th September 2009
Mishri
A very Sweet (read sugar) nick name from a very dear friend...
I happened to call him 'Mr.' X in a certain conversation and he addressed as 'Miss.' Sri and from there came the name 'Mishri'
Mishri is 'Hindi' for Sugar-Candy or Rock Sugar :)
I am thinking I should use 'Mishri' as a pen name for my blog
Cheers
Mishri
14th September 2009
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I happened to call him 'Mr.' X in a certain conversation and he addressed as 'Miss.' Sri and from there came the name 'Mishri'
Mishri is 'Hindi' for Sugar-Candy or Rock Sugar :)I am thinking I should use 'Mishri' as a pen name for my blog
Cheers
Mishri
14th September 2009
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Shirk off Divinity
Heard real beautiful thoughts on divinity from someone today.. Did not want to lose the string of pearls.... So I am documenting them here...
God Says:
I am Divine, I realized it...
You are divine too, You haven't realized it ...
Thoughts:
Realizing we are divine would involve to a large extent shedding ego and assuming responsibility to the results of our actions. Can't do either, can we? It is always easy when someone else takes (at least we assume so) decisions for us and they can be conveniently blamed for our shortcomings and also for the consequences of our actions.
Thus the easiest way out is to 'Shirk off Divinity' that is well within you and blame HIM.
He will take it because He has patience but remember that He will not leave you till you learn the lessons even if it means teaching them the hard way.
Amused
Sri Seshabhattar
14th September 2009
God Says:
I am Divine, I realized it...
You are divine too, You haven't realized it ...
Thoughts:
Realizing we are divine would involve to a large extent shedding ego and assuming responsibility to the results of our actions. Can't do either, can we? It is always easy when someone else takes (at least we assume so) decisions for us and they can be conveniently blamed for our shortcomings and also for the consequences of our actions.
Thus the easiest way out is to 'Shirk off Divinity' that is well within you and blame HIM.
He will take it because He has patience but remember that He will not leave you till you learn the lessons even if it means teaching them the hard way.
Amused
Sri Seshabhattar
14th September 2009
Just a 'Self-Reminder'
If we are experiencing a dull moment, How do we overcome it?
- Bear with fortitude both loss and grief.
- Try and search for plans to achieve joy and gain.
- When you are invaded by anger, practice silence or remember the Name of the Lord. Do not remind yourself of things which will inflame the anger more; that will do incalculable harm.
- For faults and sins committed in ignorance, repent sincerely.
- Try not to repeat the faults and sins again.
- Pray to God to bless you with the strength and the courage needed to stick to the right path.
- From this moment, avoid all bad habits. Do not delay or postpone. They do not contribute to the slightest joy.
- Sandeha Nivarini
Just for Sri
Sri Seshabhattar
14th September 2009
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Sri Seshabhattar
14th September 2009
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