I was beginning to think I will not be able to pen anything happy in the blog again until I got married and started to live for a reason and not merely survive. Dileep helped (is still helping) me understand how important it is not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. He made discover a world full of possibilities and filled with positive energy. I found my place in a perfect(for me) world. Hope to keep blogging.
I want to live - with or with out you
If it is possible I don’t want to feel this way
I want to enjoy your absence and ignore your presence
My words I want to keep and get a good night’s sleep
I want to get off this lane and fall-out of pain
My pillows, they know your name; they must think I am so lame
For they are never dry as I dig into them and cry
Wind brings your scent; birds sing your name
Every thought of you makes me insane
Walking through the rain; sending myself through pain
I think of you and fall in love again
If it is possible, I don’t want to feel this way
From this pain I want to get-away
On these lonely banks I no longer want to sit and wail
To a happy place I want to set sail
I want to live 'with or without you'Inspired from U2's "with or without you" <--(click here to listen)
Photo credits Canon Power Shot SD 600
Sri Seshabhattar
10th April 2010
I will figure it out!
I learned to be Alone, Never thought would be Lonely
I learned to stare at Darkness, Never thought would have to live in Dark
I learned to battle for Victory, Never had to fight to Lose
I learned to soak up my Tears, Never to run them down my Cheeks
I learned to control Hatred, Never had to curb Love
There is always a First Time
I will drown into an Ocean and learn to Float
I will Talk myself into learning Silence
I will learn to Lose a battle and Win a friend
I will learn to figure it out
I can and I will!
Nee Sneham lo, Velige vennelo, konnalaina santhoshamga gadichayanukona ....
Sri Seshabhattar
24th March 2010
Fair Trial
It is so amusing to me....
the choice you have made....
you had the power to screen me off your life....
and you chose it...
even the worst in the world get their turn....
to say something in return....
I never got my last words...
If I did something ....
for you throw me away...
to erase my memories ....
and you think I deserve punishment....
then....I demand...
I demand a trial ... a fair trial.....
you be the judge...
I will be the devil's advocate .....
Why today....
Why today you might ask...
It is today because ..
It didn't happen yesterday.... and it may not tomorrow....
the choice you have made....
you had the power to screen me off your life....
and you chose it...
even the worst in the world get their turn....
to say something in return....
I never got my last words...
If I did something ....
for you throw me away...
to erase my memories ....
and you think I deserve punishment....
then....I demand...
I demand a trial ... a fair trial.....
you be the judge...
I will be the devil's advocate .....
Why today....
Why today you might ask...
It is today because ..
It didn't happen yesterday.... and it may not tomorrow....
Changing oneself
Should we or should we not change ourselves for others...
Ideal answer: No, we should not...
Practical answer: Of course, why not?
But don't call it change.. call it 'adaptation' or 'mutation' and throw in words like 'survival of the fittest' and Bam! Not only you can change yourself but you also have a scientific theory to support your change.
Do not forget! ... You have to lose some to gain some!... Change yourself, adapt to the world, make yourself comfortable... and lose your 'identity'!
Random thoughts
Sri
31st January 2010
Ideal answer: No, we should not...
Practical answer: Of course, why not?
But don't call it change.. call it 'adaptation' or 'mutation' and throw in words like 'survival of the fittest' and Bam! Not only you can change yourself but you also have a scientific theory to support your change.
Do not forget! ... You have to lose some to gain some!... Change yourself, adapt to the world, make yourself comfortable... and lose your 'identity'!
Random thoughts
Sri
31st January 2010
Hyderabad Meri Jaan
Born elsewhere grew up in this city
Those days people had felicity
Lived here for Life
Love was prevalent then meagre was strife
Things certainly changed
Auto Rickshaws bother me so do Cars
High rise buildings are dense and trees became sparse
Idea of pollution both air and sound
driving on roads with dents and vehicles that mound
Fills me with fear paramount
When the flight hits the ground
Heart starts to pound
There is so much to Hyderabad
Than just the borders and buildings
I miss my city, I miss my Life
with my eyes filled with tears
As I land in my hometown the city of pearls
“Welcome home kid” every inch of it Cheers!!!
Missing Home
Mishri
15th November 2009
Picture Credits: Canon Powershot SD 600
Just one!
Some people take time to mingle, make friends and finally open up to others..... You meet a person and think he is totally reserved, introverted, selfish, lame, egoist and the likes... but when you manage to stay friends with them long enough these caterpillars do turn into butterflies who make your world so much better....
I also met the other kind-very sweet and pleasant to begin with, but spoil all your relations, steal your friends and crumple your world to the best of their abilities...
Every single time I ask my friends "what they thought about me when they met me?" They all (well, most of them) say 'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'. What do they think of me now?'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'.
It doesn't really matter if someone knows me for a day, year or a decade, they think I am the same person they met!! Should this make me happy!? I don't know!
I have always read these books where the lead / anti -hero always had a character with the depth of an ocean and are very mystic.
I am beginning to think there is no such depth to my personality..... I am 100% 'Me' from the minute anyone meets me... There is no mysterious quality about me... I don't have this cool dimension or a different facet to my personality... I present myself as and will remain the exact same person always... How dull is that!
If ever I had to write an auto-biography or make a movie about my life, Here's how it would go:
"Hi, I am Sridevi, Nice to meet you, Let me know if you need something!"
What are you waiting for?... The show is over.. go home!!!
Curtains Down
Mishri
15th November 2009
I also met the other kind-very sweet and pleasant to begin with, but spoil all your relations, steal your friends and crumple your world to the best of their abilities...
Every single time I ask my friends "what they thought about me when they met me?" They all (well, most of them) say 'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'. What do they think of me now?'Happy go lucky', 'Fun to be with' or 'Fun gang'.
It doesn't really matter if someone knows me for a day, year or a decade, they think I am the same person they met!! Should this make me happy!? I don't know!
I have always read these books where the lead / anti -hero always had a character with the depth of an ocean and are very mystic.
I am beginning to think there is no such depth to my personality..... I am 100% 'Me' from the minute anyone meets me... There is no mysterious quality about me... I don't have this cool dimension or a different facet to my personality... I present myself as and will remain the exact same person always... How dull is that!
If ever I had to write an auto-biography or make a movie about my life, Here's how it would go:
"Hi, I am Sridevi, Nice to meet you, Let me know if you need something!"
What are you waiting for?... The show is over.. go home!!!
Curtains Down
Mishri
15th November 2009
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